Alive. Dead

Another unfinished one from the list which also celebrates its anniversary today! I guess it better go online atleast now!

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As I lie on my bed,
A little alive, but mostly dead
Hearing silence, but a lots been said
Loud thoughts, but a silent me
An uncanny change, to a resilient me,
As I lie on my bed,
A little alive, but mostly dead
I try rest, I try heal
Turmoil, trapped in a spinning wheel,
So much I spoke, but no one heard,
As I lie on my bed,
A little alive, but mostly dead
Tomorrows here, but I’ve lost my way
The pain the suffering, my smile hides,
I keep trying, falling, falling and failing
As I lie on my bed,
A little alive, but mostly dead….